It’s a similar pattern for you. Make the singular commitment. Envision that thing that you want. Once that is established, determine how you will monetize it. It's that simple.
I know it’s painful, but we must deal with your fault in the matter of financial choice behavior. It could be said that you refuse to be consistent, mindful, and proactive. But, there's a solution.
Consumerism is getting as much as you can, canning all you get, and sitting on the can. If you can get more, get that too. You're always overworked and underpaid.
Begin with the decision that you are going to do what is necessary. You are used to doing what is necessary, but without a plan. Many people can’t find $2000 in their personal budget, but they have 6 or