Grieving is hard and painful but necessary in order to move forward. In order to do that, I hear my Mom tell me to get up and get going. I know she wouldn’t be pleased with this “Gripression” (Grief and Depression).
Regardless, I still felt vacant and tired. I realized no matter how hard I have been working on being better and having a better attitude, I admit, my confidence was low and it sucked!
Freedom: I realized that I would NEVER live up to THEIR standards. I would never be what THEY wanted me to be. If I was what they wanted, I could never be what I WANTED.