This is an important lesson. Corporations will often attempt to sell you on the fact that you can pay $140 total so that you don't have to pay $60. But, of course, that doesn't make financial sense.
Many people can't reduce by sacrifice, and it makes the goal of making more money their only option. The whole proposition of making more money has detrimental effects on other areas in their life.
It’s a similar pattern for you. Make the singular commitment. Envision that thing that you want. Once that is established, determine how you will monetize it. It's that simple.
I know it’s painful, but we must deal with your fault in the matter of financial choice behavior. It could be said that you refuse to be consistent, mindful, and proactive. But, there's a solution.